Sunday, September 28, 2008

Lord, please take this cup of suffering from me. But let it not be by my will but by Yours. whatever suffering, test, trials you have in store and is coming let it not be in vain but let it be for Your glory and yours alone. 


ben on 10:55 PM
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Wednesday, September 24, 2008

Thank you Lord. its all i need to say right now. whether i feel good or bad it doesn't matter. 



ben on 10:57 PM
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Sunday, September 14, 2008

I hated myself for who I was...
What I did. 
Whatever I have done..
Who I was created as..
How I looked..
I did...
Each morning i walk the pass the mirror in the hall, I stare at myself...disgusted...for who i was...

Now i see at myself in the mirror learning to love myself...
Not erasing the memories of my past but learning to move on.

But i just can't seem to forgive myself for certain mistakes that all it ever did was brought me nothing but misery. 

God, give me strength to forgive myself because it seems impossible :(


ben on 12:26 AM
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Thursday, September 04, 2008
Happy birthday :)

Oh crap is 12.36! 36 min pass your birthday T.T sorry sorry hahaha
Happy birthday to you,
Happy birthday to you
Happy birthday to mummy!!
Happy birthday to you!! ^^
Thanks for being there to listen to all my crap and sorry i used to take thing out on you especially when me and daddy had fights. 
Thanks for being so patient in trying to be a mediator for me and daddy.
Yup, I love you and im not embarassed to say it :)


ben on 12:36 AM
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Wednesday, September 03, 2008
Why I support Jesusbranded

I support Jesusbranded because it has very creative products such as the t-shirts and hoodies.
It also produce products that's about God.
It is original and it gives God glory.
This is why I support Jesusbranded. 
http://www.JesusBranded.com">Christian Tshirt



ben on 10:01 AM
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Tuesday, September 02, 2008

As I was praying just now i just felt the Lord put a word in my heart. That was FAITH
Whatever happens..whatever she chooses i'm gonna put my FAITH in God.
I believe i can win her back. Or maybe i dun even have to.
Maybe all i need to do is believe. 


ben on 10:30 PM
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Monday, September 01, 2008
Wishful thinking

You thought you could never have me.
You dreamt you danced with me and thought it would never come true.
You thought you were not pretty enough to be noticed.

You have me now..
I want to dance with you too..
You are more than pretty.

Now its my turn to wish i could have you.
Now i wish you would dance with me because I am dancing alone.
Now i wish I was made more than what I am.


ben on 10:35 PM
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Leaving it to Him

You once said you loved me for who I was.
You once said I made you happy.
You once said I was more than what I thought I was.
You once said I was more than a crush.

What else can i say? What else can i do? I have no one else. 
I want to sleep and never wake up again because i am scared of what the future holds.
What will she say? What is she feeling?
Why is it everytime i love someone, most of the time they do the same back but subsequently becomes screwed up.
Why? I really dunno.
But I have no one else but Him. So i'm leaving it to Him.
I have come to a stage where i have nothing to depend on but God and the love i once believed in and still do.


ben on 5:11 PM
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Maybe my dream was a fake. Maybe i can never have her. 
Edits : I am confident in the love we once shared. I love you like salt.


ben on 12:46 PM
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Warrior

I'm a warrior of God. 
I'm fit for battle.
I am in battle.
I have lost many but won much more than many.
I am the warrior of love.
I win battles with love.
I win battles using love.
I win wars with love.
I win wars using love. 
I won the countless waves of enemies by saying" I love you".
Love is my strongest weapon.
It is my shield.
It is my guide.
Now, I'm setting out on my next war.
Countering a new enemy.
They hate me for loving. 
So, I said" I love you." and they fell to their knees and worshipped the Lord.

I'm a warrior of God. 
I'm fit for battle.
I am in battle.
I have lost many but won much more than many.
I am the warrior of love.
I win battles with love.
I win battles using love.
I win wars with love.
I win wars using love. 
I won the countless waves of enemies by saying" I love you".
Love is my strongest weapon.
It is my shield.
It is my guide.
Now, I'm setting out on my next war.
Countering a new enemy.
They hate me for loving.
So, I said " I love you".
But they did not fall. 
Holding their heavy shield, standing united with swords joined.
Lifting up hands ready to shout "Victory is Ours!"
I had lost my faith.
I lost..
But with love came faith and hope.
Standing up once again, blowing the breath of love once again bringing them to their knees before the Lord.



ben on 8:56 AM
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