Sunday, August 24, 2008
Feeling super alone... really alone. God pls come and take this loneliness away from me :(
I wish you would talk soon..><
well ok on to the bright side... i am not going to be what ppl expect me to be juz becoz i am an elder's child.
Even sp's son wants to leave becoz of this expectation thing...
I wish sometimes i wasn't an elder's child.
Then again, I was meant to be one.
I'm just going to be myself. You know elders... you can gossip and say as much as u want abt me and the ppl i am with.. but i'm not going to let ur words affect me. Whatever expectation you have of me.. i have my own.
This is meant for you as well.
I don't want to be alone... not again.
I don't want to be the same person i was before, using a mask to cover my face.
No, I am different. Believe me this time if you havent for the past few times.
I really am.. God its all in your hands...
I'm not worried abt the situation anymore but i am lonely yes i am.
I don't want to be feeling it again because i have been experiencing it long enough.
Too many years to hold.. get away from me. i just want to be happy again.
I am happy.. but there's something missing.
I am happy.. but its a happiness that sometimes i force.
Pls come back :( i miss us.. not just you. I missed who i used to be. So happy and carefree.. i miss the times you talked.. i miss you. :( alot..
ben on 9:51 PM
